so to day is Thanksgiving. it has been a difficult one…. i have much to be thankful for. so very much. but in light of my blessings a very dear friend has been diagnosed with breast cancer. and then at dinner tonight we find out that a cousin in the family has also just been diagnosed with breast cancer at 41 years….stage 2 already in the lymph. so I pray….and hope. there is also the family in our small town this week that lost their 48 year old mother. she had h1n1 and it went to bacterial pneumonia and she went home and died. two children. what does one say to that? there is nothing to say.
the brokenness. the pain. the anguish of being used. i pray.
i am a horrible blogger lately. i have no time and too many thoughts in my head. i hate not being able to write.and now my garden is put to bed for the winter….but here is my clematis from the fall…it was beautiful and i can hardly wait until next year. i got alot canned this fall and am hoping to can meat this winter…..more later.
clematis this fall
ok…tomorrow i am going to try to get a post up…..there aren’t enough hours in the day/ days in the week….sweet dreams!!!
sorry it has been awhile…not that anyone reads this….but that is totally okay. busy days, busy evenings. got salsa made, got the veggie soup canned, got tomatoes pureed and canned…and there is more to do. plus grades, laundry, bills, papers to write….arrggg….TOOOOO MUCH!!!
had Beth Moore study tonight…we are done with it next week…gonna miss seeing the gals every week.. but i will see them @ church. we are doing Breaking Free and it is a great one….
and still the Lord is good and merciful…in the moon i saw last week shining so brilliantly down….in my honeysuckle blooming again….in seeing my emmah (who is almost 18) sleeping…how blessed i am.
anybody know what i did wrong with the pics in the previous post??? the link shows up underneath the pic…thanks! later….
so….i haven’t really been too personal on here …. okay….maybe i have. but one of the things i do is organic gardening and canning. everything out of my garden is canned…..like what the grandmas and great-grandmas used to do. or homesteaders. i wasn’t raised this way….but my love of gardening lead me to figure out how to preserve it all and not necessarily in a freezer. today was veggie soup day. at least the first batch of it. so in my veggie soup is my potatoes, my tomatoes, my green beans and a few of my carrots. the carrots are rather small right now. the house smells like soup and roasted peppers and tomatoes cooking. i also canned spaghetti sauce today that i cooked yesterday. i love canning. how about you?
Vegetable Soup
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Purple peppers
…i did not grow these….i roasted them though!!
my hibiscus this year
so much has gone on that is too late to save. a life of quiet desperation…that is what it is about…never has been simple or subdued…always complicated because of people. why? i want to know why? in hindsight i should have gone with the original plan for my life…..and none of this would have ever happened. i could have been simple and uncomplicated and maybe peaceful inside. but it is too late for that; too much responsibility, too much of words and emotion and unwise choices. too much. it is overwhelming. so this life is no good to anyone and leads to nothing but chaos. pointless. absolutely pointless.
been awhile. so much going on. life. responsibility. choices. consequences. i will always wonder why people do not understand there is accountability for the choices they make. and that those choices affect others as well. i have three children. one is almost 25, one is 19 and one is 17. the 25 year old didn’t finish college, works at a restaurant/bar, is in debt and i believe is doing okay but needs to figure some things out. the 19 year old graduated from high school, joined the marines and now has quit the marines but has absolutely no clue what is going on. the 17 year old is a senior in high school and i pray for her choices.
i am working to understand life. my part in it. our life as a family. giving independence to the children that i have loved since their birth in my heart.
more later…..
