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has it really been four months?  i keep up better on xanga than i do here.  but i am not as honest on xanga as i am here.  there is nothing new with the son.  now that basketball is over he does nothing. he doesn’t do his homework, no help around the house, absolutely nothing.  i continue to pray.  for patience, for a tempered tongue, but to also hold him accountable for his actions and choices.  how can he be 17 and act worse than what he did when he was a toddler?  i question what it is that sam and i have done, what was it when he went to high school that we didn’t see or pick up on.  what should we have done that we didn’ do? 

my new job is still overwhelming. i am saddened by the politics of education. it should be about the students and what the teacher needs to help them learn the best way they can.  but it isn’t.  and i am somewhat trapped with my job.  i now provide the health insurance, as well as dental and vision (which we never had before!), and i am making more money than sam.  i worry about his maleness in being the provider in our home. i would rather be home baking and stuff~ but here i am in this spot and this is what i need to do………

Author: melinda

a follower of Christ & a Daughter of the Great High King of Heaven disguised as a wife, a mum, a nurse, a baker, a gardener, a teacher, an artist and many things unknown by others.

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