life as it is seen from my heart and soul

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if you could only see each day.

but i know the Lord does. i take solace in that.
because i think that if someone were to come along with me they would not believe it.
the day to day. the arrows slung at me in words, looks, emails, actions.
i think of John Eldridge and The Sacred Romance – his chapter on the Arrows.
i have just re-read This Present Darkness by Frank Peretti.
so each night in my garden with the mosquitos attacking like crazy – i pick and i pray.
i pick and i pray. i remember His Faithfulness. i remember His Goodness.
i am coming up on my 50th anniversary of my birth in Christ. how has this happened?
that my faith is 50 years old? that i have tried to walk In His Steps. (omg that is a fab book too)
i have so much to learn. so much to read. too many things to write.
and yet the longing to slow down. to absorb the day in a different Light.
today at 2pm i was picking in the garden watching the bees on my sunflowers.
busy little things with legs so full of pollen i wonder how do they fly?
big fat bodies, little tiny wings.
the locusts are noisy. the sky is blue. the big white clouds. my sunflowers following the light.
and i am a bee. in my garden. gathering, collecting, and off to my hive.
with my little tomatoes and my big tomatoes. and beans and squashes.
oh and the carrots that did not do well. lots of green leaves, but teeny tiny carrots.
i heard there is a tomato shortage in California. but not here. not in my little hive.
so we have pizza sauce and pasta sauce and there is currently roasted tomato soup in the canner.
there will be chili base to can. and maybe roasted cherry tomatoes with olive oil and garlic to put on bread this winter as we eat our soup and thank the Lord for His ever faithful presence.
so what are you doing? i am off to find my copy of In His Steps because it has been a while.
Blessings dear ones.

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the trick of time

oh daylight savings time ~ you cruel trick of time.
it might be lighter this evening but my mind will not think it the time it is.
and it will still be dark as i drive to work every morning.
there are many Cons of daylight savings time and few Pros.
so what is it about Time?
Lewis writes about Time in Mere Christianity and it makes me think.
really really think about the Presence of God in Time.
what is Time to God? is He not the Creator of Time?
was the Creation of Time for His purpose or mine?
the rhythm of Time and day & night.
the moon and the sun.
Lewis asks does God fit too many things into one moment of Time?
He writes the following: “Almost certainly God is not in Time. His life does not consist of moments following one another. If a million people are praying to Him at ten-thirty tonight, He need not listen to them all in that one little snippet which we call ten-thirty. Ten-thirty…is always the Present for Him.
so the Present in Time is always the Present for God.
Time is for me, not for God.
and my tiny pea-brain cannot comprehend this. how does this happen?
so does He see beginning and end at once?
oh my.
another thought from Lewis:
If you picture Time as a straight line along which we have to travel, then you must picture God as the whole page on which the line is drawn. We come to the parts of the line one by one: we have to leave A behind before we get to B, and cannot reach C until we leave B behind. God, from above or outside or all round, contains the whole line, and sees it all.”
so. Time is irrelevant to Jesus. but what does that mean for me?
my days are numbered. my Earthly days.
does Christ see it that way? does the Trinity move in and out of Time?
do i use my Time wisely here on Earth?
back to Light and Dark and now Time.
God sees it all. ALL.
and He is IN ALL.
so no matter the Dark, the Light, the Time my Father God is with me.
and in that, i will do my best. will you do yours?????