how does one move on? from the issues at hand, the darkness of each night, the voices inside my head whispering lies, the words not spoken but the thoughts that are felt?
it is raining here. the birds are eating like crazy out of the bird feeders. cut outs are baked and waiting to be purveyors of frosting. the laundry is washing and drying and waiting to be folded. the sky is grey. Christmas music plays as i work in my little home.
and yet, my mind keeps thinking. about the issues in my life. about what i can never accomplish. about what doesn’t get done at work. about mistakes made in words. about so very much that it appears ~ I . Cannot. Change.
and there it is. right there. the message of the day, the year, of my life.
did you see the Marvel movie Dr. Strange? because it has been on every night this week and I have watched it every night and even today while rolling out cookie dough.
listen closely to what you might learn. there are some amazing life lessons in Dr. Strange. and they come from the Ancient One. as she is about to take her astral body and float into death she tells him he has yet to learn the most profound and simplest truth of all ~ It’s Not About You. and then she vanishes.
and she is right. because Jesus says this all the time. it isn’t about me. it is about others. so moving on from issues, voices, darkness of night, or thoughts felt is about letting go of the me and turning to Him. this lesson is on REPEAT in my life right now. over and over and over. Press Play. then Repeat. it isn’t about me.
but in thinking of others and doing for others there are boundaries to keep us safe and secure in understanding our ‘self’ is bound to Christ alone. not to what we do or know or give or say or write. i can only give out of me because I understand the Greatest Gift was given to me and therefore He is all I need.
the Holy Babe arriving soon with One Holy Purpose ~ to lay down His life for my sins, to shed His blood to provide me with Mercy and then to rise again in defeat of death to provide me with Grace. so maybe it is two lessons on Repeat ~ I cannot change circumstances and It isn’t about me.
be blessed in this season and know there is a God that loves you more than you can fathom.