life as it is seen from my heart and soul


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my life is learning to get better at choosing this hashtag… because i went to Diamond Hills Baptist Women’s Retreat last Saturday… and the theme was I Choose Joy. I knew only one person there, she happened to be one of the leaders. So I sat by myself, left side 10th row back and soaked it all in. 125 women. Praise band. Scripture. Personal stories from the speaker about suicide, life, singlehood, being a woman in ministry, healing, depression, and in it all ~ the Joy of the Lord. OH wait, I forgot to mention the Fellowship and the amazing food. they took care of everything ~ flowers everywhere, huge balloons in the sanctuary of bees, ladybugs, flowers, & lots of butterflies; a tile that says I Choose Joy for each of us, pens, little paper notebooks to take notes with our names on it, there was no detail forgotten.
and the Prayer Room. I saw it when I walked in. I came to this retreat intentionally – in the hopes to hear my Lord speak to my heart. because i have been lost in the doldrums of my job; the questioning of my life choices; the doubting that I really did screw up my children…. and the list goes on. the evil one is sneaking, slimy, filthy dirty in his tricks of deceit. but now ~ #ichoosejoy.  I. Choose. Joy. because i went in that prayer room, alone but not Alone, and poured out my heart and my tears – and He sat there waiting for me, listening to me, reminding me of His Presence. oh my gracious & loving Lord ~ He never Fails, Never. He is my Chief Shepherd. He is the Lifter of my head. He is the Healer of my heart. so i sat there an absolute mess of tears and snot and it was good. and i kept breathing Him in. and i walked out knowing that from that day on #ichoosejoy because my joy is in Him and nothing else.

Author: melinda

a follower of Christ & a Daughter of the Great High King of Heaven disguised as a wife, a mum, a nurse, a baker, a gardener, a teacher, an artist and many things unknown by others.

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