went to a gathering of believers last night. lots of people i knew there from my past church and life. worshipping, communion, all the things you do in a fellowship of believers. but what are their intentions when they come to hug me or ask me how things are? maybe i shouldn’t question their intentions? what does it matter to me? i keep being reminded that i am only to love no matter how i am treated or their intentions. but it hurts to think of what i have shared, what i have given of myself, what i have lost to others. and in this, do i understand a very small bit about my Saviour. what He gave, how He loved, the pain and anguish He endured to love. how can i love like that? how can i love and not think of what their intentions are? i smile, i talk, but i still wonder. and in that is my earthly sin. so i pray to be more like Him.