it is the end of a long week. teaching. dealing with drama filled teen age girls trying to control the destiny of others in pursuit of being what they believe is the best.
and underneath the flow of my classroom ~ the tests, the quizzes, the medical terms, the anatomy, the physiology, the skill of caring for someone that is ill….. is the skill i do not know in trying to care for the mind and heart and soul of these students.
in this world that is imploding in economy and faith ~ their lives are imploding around them. i am trying to see what is God doing for them? they are losing their homes, their parents are losing jobs, dealing with depression, trying to help pay bills by giving their fast food paychecks to the water department, sleeping with their boyfriends searching for love, and the list goes on.
it has been a long week.
i walked tonight…. pursuing the Glorious. asking Him in the moonlight that is on the sidewalk and hanging above me ~ what do i do? i want to help them all but i cannot because of our own precarious life. i can barely see Him sometimes inside my own life let alone their lives.
in the end they come into my room and spill their tears and their hearts with pain and anguish and embarrassment. we discuss what can they do, how it is affecting them, and in the long run ~ somehow ~ life will change. one day. they walk out and silently i pray.
i wonder what next week will be like. i pray in my moonlight walk to please let me see the Glorious.