so much has gone on that is too late to save. a life of quiet desperation…that is what it is about…never has been simple or subdued…always complicated because of people. why? i want to know why? in hindsight i should have gone with the original plan for my life…..and none of this would have ever happened. i could have been simple and uncomplicated and maybe peaceful inside. but it is too late for that; too much responsibility, too much of words and emotion and unwise choices. too much. it is overwhelming. so this life is no good to anyone and leads to nothing but chaos. pointless. absolutely pointless.