i am learning. i’m not sure about how much i will learn. i know now that so much of what i have believed or thought about my growing up and about relationships wasn’t really true. i have learned to place some serious boundaries around myself when it comes to family relationships. i have learned that my current job is providential because of what i have learned in the last year and hopefully because of what the Lord can teach some of the students through me. i am learning that friendships aren’t really what they seem to be because of perceptions. that true honesty and vulnerability is extremely painful and difficult ~ especially when looking at the self life. i am changed because of this. i am trying to take it one day at a time….truly one day at a time. i am reading and writing and i am hopeful that this summer will be better than last ~ still learning but not as painful. i know i cannot explain this. this process of learning about codependency, enabling, shedding and solitude and simplicity, and especially of being empty to become His. i am learning and i don’t want to stop it.
