i am learning new things. i am trying to be brave or bold or what ever you want to call it. to do what i should do for me and not for someone else because i want them to like me or because i need to feel loved by them. this is new for me. and he still isn’t speaking about the real stuff of our life…..but i will wait until the right time and then it won’t be an intrusion or a sword into his heart or soul.