much on my mind tonight….i am hopeful for a snow day tomorrow even though we shouldn’t miss school. but i want to stay home….i feel like crap all because i got infected with the head crap. no thanks to my husband.
i wonder about relationships. especially the ones you have most of your life and how some of them aren’t really what you thought they were. i am trying to understand how people that were supposed to be adults didn’t get their responsibilities and that their choices were their own fault and not their children’s. i have worked through so much of what i didn’t realize when i was growing up. and i always blamed one parent but it was both of them.
and then there is friendship and what does it really mean and why must we live in community when the community doesn’t think you are important? i don’t get this. what does God really want us to learn except to depend on Him for everything? so why need other people?
and just life and money and kids and what is it all for and who really cares. i keep playing the should haves through my head……i would have been better off i think.
and then…will spring ever get here?