well……i feel like i have taken quite a few steps backwards…..i am back on my papaya enzyme tabs and my stomach has been killing me for a week now. i feel like i have failed terribly. i cannot get mot to understand what i am trying to work through. i do not know what to do with jd or se or any of it. it seems there is no getting out. it gets darker and deeper. and there is debt that seems to grow by millions.