served on a walk to emmaus this past weekend. what do you say when God continually shows up in words, music, smiles and tears? being the servant is awesome. i would do that forever. and then there is communion. and prayer time at the rail. i cried so much on saturday my eyes were killing me that night. but there is so much pain i feel. i cannot believe how much there is. and i am not thinking of doing any harm to myself, but it hurts so bad. and i know it is for a reason, some thing God is doing in my mind, my heart, my soul. i will do whatever it takes to get through it…..so i try very hard to listen and wait and be patient. i try to understand my role in relationships…with family it is soooooooooooo difficult. but Christ is here ~ each day waiting on me….holding me…..talking to me.