the past week was one that was soooo difficult…..i didn’t know how much it would hurt. i feel like every where i go there are others that know. i know that isn’t true, but it feels that way. i wonder what tom thinks…he hasn’t said anything to me. trust ~ i have lived through one period of our life without his trust, i hope this isn’t the second. this is not what i expected at this time of life….how it all fell and crashed. the sound has been unbearable, the tearing painful. it is one day at a time and i do have some hope now.