so another friday night…and i am alone in the house. i told j earlier he needed to go somewhere else for the night. i didn’t ask anything. i didn’t say he needed to call ~ just to go. the other two are in detroit and s is slowly drowning in a life of what i assume to be debt and alcohol. i do not know what has happened to those around me. what has happened to me? it is easier to keep to myself because then i don’t hurt as bad.